Reached My Limit: A Necessary Break
Hello everyone...
I suffered a mental breakdown and feel very depressed. My productivity went way down. I never thought I would get burned out, but it happened, and I think it has been for the last three months. I had numerous bad experiences, both personal and professional. I've had to deal with a lot of personal problems along the way, but I haven't stopped working for a moment. In this niche, the key is to produce consistent content that is fun. I haven't had time for myself, to seek professional help, and now I feel I need it more than ever.
I feel like I need to stop, at least for a week. I need to clear my head and regain the strength to keep going. I have been in a brutal routine for years, even working weekends. Even when my mother died last year, I barely allowed myself two days off.
I have lost all motivation, and it could be dangerous to continue like this. When one hits such an emotional low point, dark thoughts recur. I know some of you have had similar experiences, and I know that a post like this could hurt support on Patreon, which, in the end, helps me survive and pay for development costs. I don't blame you guys, most of you are here to receive a product. But I need a break, I really do, I'm sorry, I need to regain strength and my motivation, because otherwise I won't be able to give you the quality content you deserve.
Sorry to disappoint you. I wish I didn't have to do a post like this; I want to get on with the development as soon as possible to bring you the continuation of Charlotte's story, (which was the winner of the last community vote), but now I simply feel overtaken.
Stawer
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A Harem Game with a Mysterious Story and a bit of Horror
Status | In development |
Author | Stawer |
Genre | Visual Novel |
Tags | 3D, Adult, Comedy, Erotic, Hentai, Horror, Male protagonist, Mystery, NSFW, Porn |
Languages | English, Spanish; Castilian, Spanish; Latin America |
Accessibility | Subtitles |
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Hope you feel better soon!
Ay bro, everyone needs a break sometimes, so you take the time you need, to ensure your mental health is sound... this is just a game, real life is by far more important then a game, and if people stop supporting you because you take a few days off, then clearly they didnt like the content enough to recognize what quality control means and the fact you cant do it if your burned out....
Everyone needs a vacation/break man, don't worry about it and enjoy yourself
Please take your time and do not rush on our account. You first. Gotta be healthy to be happy. Gotta be happy to make good art. We care about and respect you. Do what you need.
As someone who has depression and other similar mental problems and goes to therapy every other week and lost alot of family members over the years from various things I feel this more than I should... Burn out is very real don't worry about the money, or consistently delivering perfection, take care of yourself and make that number one, take as many breaks as needed. Life is rough for everyone and we're here for you, if taking a week off every month helps then dont hesitate to do so. Production of LP can always wait it's never good to rush anything. You've been a better dev over most others I've seen that are just flat out lazy and push an update out once every several years so I'm sure I speak for most when I say, I'm more than happy with what has already been delivered. I hope all is well <3
Take the time you need. You've crafted an amazing story that so many people appreciate but you have a life to live too. When I was at dark place I found a book called The Power of Now. It's free on youtube and it changed my life. You will find your path again.
with the amount of free content you've posted here on itch, you deserve to relax and work on your mental wellbeing. do your thing and we will be here for you when you get back
rest a plenty... take all the time you need. just give us a check up post here and there and we will keep flooding the support.
speeking from personal experience. a week will not be enough. sure, for a while you will feel better but than suddenly it will hit twice harder than before. make it a month or a half month.
please don't sweat it, take your time and hope you get better soon
Take your time, please do. With all your effort, you've made Lucky Paradox a truly master piece, and with a great effort we need a great time to rest as well, please take care of yourself, seek mental health, give a hug to a puppy, listen to your favorite music, don't let your thoughts consume you. Hope you will come back stronger and ready to achieve perfection with LP. Best wishes friend, we'll be here waiting for you.
Please try and take care of yourself. Your wellbeing comes first and the fans, including myself, that are along for the long run are okay with develepment taking longer if it means you get to look after yourself. You're a person, not a machine, so self-care is important to be able to be okay long-term /hug
Take care of yourself and come back we will be here whenever the update drops
Listen, nobody should have to ask or apologize for taking a week off once in a while, or spending time each week on self-care, or taking recovery time during times of loss. I'm no expert on Patreon for sure, but I'd like to hope that just the interaction and clarity of intention would be enough to keep your support base going.
Seeing this on Discord last night made me think a lot about "most of you are here to receive a product" and whether that's maybe an issue -- is this kind of game creation about a production or is it about a, pardon the term, service? Particularly with Patreon/Subscribestar/etc as a model, is it more about subscription to the ongoing experience? If that's the case, then it shouldn't be about a production deadline but just people having the experience, in this case of from time to time getting to expand the story and fun and in between times enjoying stuff like preview renders and interaction on Discord and whatever else (just meant as a examples anyway.) I've seen games that barely ever get updates but the interaction is constant and lots of wallpapers and everything -- I'm not recommending that (I kind of mentally file those games as abandoned) but there's got to be a balance.
I play very few AVNs that try to come up with an update a month and those that do sometimes have to say "not this month, I need a break" or real life introduces or whatever. It's okay to not be on that hard a schedule, it's okay to bump it sometimes regardless, it's just... okay. I think everyone wants an okay Stawer more than wanting an update in a particular week or month or whatever. I hope so. I'm looking through the comments here and it's clearly not just me saying so.
Sorry for going so long. I deal with mental health... issues... and I struggle with feeling like I disappoint people depending on me for programming (that I don't get paid for, so screw 'em, ha) and I lost a parent in 2023 and your post really resonated with me which I guess is why this is so long. I really really really hope you forgive yourself for needing to take a beat. Stay in touch (but don't start thinking that you're failing if you don't do that as often as you want, either!) and do what you need. Know that Lucky Paradox is already an amazing unique creation and I hope you're proud of what you've made. We'll be here when you're ready. Take care.
I really appreciate Lucky Paradox, especially the artwork. I follow a couple of really great ones like your work and some of them only issue updates four times a year and some only twice a year. I think you should seriously consider four times a year as an option for a work/life balance. Best regards.
Take this from a chornic Masturbator *I need to fix that* Mental health is the most important thing in life take off as much time as you need were chillin
Take care of yourself and I hope recovery goes well
Take your time bro. take as long as you need if you want someone to talk to ill be here if you respond ill give my discord or something for us to talk
I’m glad you’re prioritizing your health. Take care of yourself and I hope recovery goes well! <3
Take all the time you need! Sometimes life does you like that and theres nothing you can do but try to get away from it all.
We love the product but we also love the wonderful mind that came up with it, hope you get better soon.